Breaking the Bondage of Narcissism

She has attempted suicide many times. Contemplated it more than anyone knows. Her own son and his girlfriend found her in her closet with a noose around her neck.   But you wouldn't know it when you walk into her house. The minute the friends come around, he's a completely different person. That's why she doesn't mind the constant visitors. It's the only time she has peace.  He expects her to smile and laugh and act like he's the best husband in the world. And his friends believe it.  What they wouldn't believe is he's a cheater. Even if proof was put in their face. But the one time she welcomed phone calls from a friend from her past, he made her call everyone and tell them she's a lying, cheating whore. If she wanted to stay, she had to admit her guilt to everyone.  He tried to sleep with her best friend once. His best friends girl. She refused him and told his wife. The wife believed her, but his torment was far to grea...

The last 25 years of my life was like a 500,000 piece puzzle. That's 20,000 pieces a year. Almost 1700 pieces a month. 50 to 60 pieces a day.  Now imagine that being a real puzzle with actual pieces. Piles and piles of pieces that explained your life from beginning to end.  Along the way many pieces got lost, never to be found. But on the days when a piece fit just right... those are the ones worth remembering.  So why is it we only remember the days we struggled to find the missing piece or focused too long on the one that just wouldn't fit in that spot? Because those are the days we needed answers that would never come. Those are the days the picture on the puzzle had a clue, affirmation, just... one... more... piece.  I never finished that puzzle. I gave up on it after seeing too many of the areas to completion then destroyed. The last piece I held in my hand showed me too many truths and offered a painful aftermath. That last piece was what made it al...

Not the 5th DUI when he went to work release for 6mo. It wasn't the 6th DUI when he spent 6mo in County. Nor the 7th DUI when he was sentenced to 2 yrs in DOC (prison - only served 1 yr).  The image above is his most recent,  "I'm never gonna drink again". He was passed out drunk in this trailer when it caught fire and would have died had a passerby not jumped that wall and pulled him out. He spent 6 weeks in an induced coma due to his burns. A total of 2 months in the hospital. Pushed himself to get out of rehab within 2 weeks. In less than a month he was smoking again (said he wouldn't). Baby steps to old self? His behavior hasn't changed. His pity me, look at me, it's ALL her fault attitude is back already. 25 years with this Narcissist and I am 100% confident the drinking WILL happen... and soon!  To all who have fallen for his crap again and failed me, again.... don't even bother with,  "you were right". I'm done with you...